Musings: I Wish

“There is a vitality, a life force, a quickening that is translated thorough you into action, and because there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique… You have to keep open and aware directly to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open”
– Martha Graham

Alchemy

I wish it had all worked out the way I wanted, but,
at what point in my plan did I want it?
I wish it had worked out the way I wanted it to from 17 years ago, maybe even longer ago, but,
I would not have found me, and all the hidden jewels that came forth from the pain and let down, if it had just worked out.
I am glad it didn’t go as I had wished, but, a little easier would have been nice, but,
then I would not have found that my heart could go so deep and through the pain, turn it into compassion.
I do not know what would have happened to me if everything had worked out that way I wished.
I now look to new plans but with a wiser plan, and heart.
My life story continues, but, richer for the disappointments I once thought would break me.